why am i here?

This is a little piece on what led me here. Why am I studying fashion communication and why am I me? I don’t know, that’s probably my favourite answer to anything. It doesn’t matter if I know, I may not know or might be finding it difficult to put my thoughts into words. Why is it difficult for me to answer that question? It takes so much to discover who you really are and we’re ever evolving so you never arrive at a destination. I asked myself a question today, “What’s the meaning in life?”

I digress or not, as a child the first form of creative expression that I picked up was writing, I have this memory of a cookbook that I wrote, I couldn’t cook so I wonder what was in that. I was an avid reader because my parents were and eventually I started writing fiction, short ones, and longer ones. I never quite finished a longer story. Journaling was a personal favourite, I’ve always kept a journal since I was nine years old. I have lost most of my old journals which is quite sad because I would have loved to read what ten-year-old me or twelve-year-old me was writing about. I still journal but not as well as I did when I was younger, I used to write every little detail.

My next creative expression was cutting up scraps of clothing and handkerchiefs and dressing dolls. Honestly, I’m not so sure if that was me expressing my love for fashion and design or if it was my parents noticing that and nurturing it that led me to fashion. Fashion is a very interesting form of creative expression and it is what you make of it. There was a time when all I could think of doing was fashion design, I wanted to make garments, and that was it. Well, I’m not making garments right now.

Then I started a blog in 2016 and I realized I could combine fashion and writing. My first blog was a mess, it was on Blogger and I didn’t even know what I was doing. I created another blog on WordPress and started over and that one was better, it actually still exists. I stopped writing there in 2018 but I love that it still exists and that I can always look back at it. I had to take pictures for the blog, they were mostly flat lays and then I fell in love with photography and I realized there was so much I could do. I came to TMU the year the fashion curriculum changed and I always see that as perfect timing because I had come with the intent of studying fashion design and the new curriculum allowed me to take courses that weren’t just fashion design. I took Design Literacy and then Communication Design 1 and I just knew I wanted to do fashion communication. This is a very condensed summary of how I landed in fashion communication, I’m impressed that I was able to put it in such short words.

To be honest, I’m not sure what I am going to make of this degree, or where I’d land after university. There are a lot of options and I’m still figuring it out. I just know that I truly enjoy doing it and that it makes so much sense to me. I want to be better at it, I want to excel at it. For me, this is just the beginning. I know there’s so much more for me, so much to create, so much to design, and so many innovations. I’m created for excellence and I know it. I strive for it. I commit myself to it.

This is my first journal entry here and there will be many more. I hope you enjoyed reading this and I hope you’ll be back for more.